Marina

To make the world a more tolerable place, I believe we first have to start with the little things such as apologizing and forgiving. Even if it's just for the little things like eating someone else's last doughnut or bumping into them in the hall way. Apologizing and forgiving can make the difference in someone's day. Their mood, their attitude, towards the people in their lives, and through their daily activity, can be changed. If people really meant and were sincere about the way they said sorry, just about every human would be more polite, calm, and or understanding. Kind of like a domino effect. I know we are all humans and we all have our days of wanting to kick everyone down or wanting to be left alone but at least people would be able to talk things through and get over it. The whole thing with apologizing is that it comes with a packet of relief. The things that drag along when we feel bad can easily dissolve with simple steps to apologize. Even though not everything is forgivable, the way we choose to see the problem will be a little better.


"Be the change that you want to see in the world," Mohandas Ghandi.

The experience

Every single day from 3:30 to 5:30 after school, Monday through Friday, volleyball takes place. A gym full of teenage, drama absorbing, work out complainers, emotional accidents waiting to happen, is never really something to look forward to on any day unless your suited up with an attitude of "volleyball is what I'm here for, not you," type of deal. Well it just so happens to be that on a dry, cold, long, dragging, never seems to be ending day, I let my guard down. I've never felt such a wanting to sew the lips shut of every person who opened there mouth with words that had no relevance to do with volleyball. I felt as if my mind was slowly getting taken over by the mind set of my mother, easily aggravated and impatient. Throughout about three fourths of the way through practice, I worked so hard to hold my tongue. I needed to get out but there was no way of escaping the drama, ignorance, the non importance of he said she said in a gym filled with the staleness of the cold weather. What was to happen next was not something I knew I cradled within me.

Out of the core of my stomach I yelled out so very loudly, to everyone who was human, to shut up! Then I went on a rant about how no one cares about the stupid problems that won't matter anymore in a couple of days, that's when I started pin pointing the girls, who's voices made me want to rip out there voice boxes and make them eat it. Through the whole rant no one tried to stop me, no one tried to do anything. Long story short, I have never felt so relieved and horrible at the same time. I bursted out crying do to the fact that I was so overwhelmed with everything. At the end of practice, I made an announcement, and all eyes were on me. I could feel the eyes of those who hated, felt sorry for, and agreed with me. As I opened my mouth I started with, I'm sorry to everyone that I hurt and embarrassed, I'm sorry for what had happened.

That was all I said and things seemed to be better. The air around me felt lighter and some of the evil glares turned into a let's just move on type of deal.